I hate you. Sums it all up, no?

You make me cry a lot.
You sort of poisoned me and you make me feel all depressed and that makes me eat a lot and I’d gain weight and its all because of bloody you!

I wish you could go away. Stop toying with my emotions okay? I’m not your puppet. Cut me loose already. Its hard enough that I have to clean up after your bloody mess. I love you and all.
I mean, without you my life would be meaningless, scouts honour! I’m just bloody tired of it.
How come everyone has it so easily? They don’t have to go through the pain that I went through. You come and go as you please. You toy around with my emotions, make me feel hopeless and shit, then you leave just like that.

Then you come again the next month.

Fuck you PMS. Go screw another teenager with your raging hormones.

I love you ovaries but Mr PainPMS has got to go.

Sayang,
Eggo that is not Preggo

It kills me to be writing this letter. Anyway..
Dear dead one,
You’re gone. It has been years since I last talked to you, hear you laugh, have meals with you and you would always force me to pig out with you so you would feel less guilty.

You were sort of like my bestfriend. No. You were the BEST friend.
I never thought that I would lose you.
I have always imagined us, gray haired talking about our grandchildren and comparing their level of cuteness.
You were there when I need a boost, when I’m on my worst mood, when I just feel damn right shitty.
Because you were so hilarious. I could just laugh about anything even if its not that funny.
You understood me more than I understood myself.
Its like we have built-in brain wave system.
You always finish my sentences which is damn annoying.

But.. I can’t hold on to someone who is dead. Its not good for your soul. Mine too. Tell my cats and rabbits I said hi kay? I mean if you’re on the “Dead Animal” department of course.

I miss you.
Your still-alive friend.
Why did you have to die? D:

I’ve missed you boy. How’ve you been? I know it sucks to lose your balls for only 50 bucks. But dude you gotta stay strong kay. Everyone loses their balls once or twice in life.
I miss you and I can only see you when I get back to Kuching. I wish you could talk so I could ramble to you like how I used to. And you would just look at me with your caramel eyes. I swear I could tell what you’re not saying. :)
Ohhh talking about you makes me miss you even more! Babyyy! Call me or bbm me or whatever puhlease? :(
I bet you’re chillin at your new crib and all. Lucky bitch.

Send my regards to Kurt the gay-cat k?
Sayang,
The person whom you scratched to death.

*cough*
Hi! I sayang you you know that? Oh I’m sorry. I forgot you don’t speak Malay. I want to be you. Wanna know why?

Cause you’re Hayden-idontcareifpeoplesayhe’sgotbadbreathcausehe’stoohotregardless- Christensen’s fiancee! Girl that is so unfair! But you gave me an inspiration though. A person with lack of height can date someone so extraordinarily hot! I heard you guys are taking a time-out? But why? Damn don’t tell me one of you cheated on another because I swear to god.. That (Sorry I got sidetracked)

Where did you get most of your clothes? Aahhh I want to spend years in your closet. Can you adopt me? You’re in your late twenties right? :O that’s awesome! Owh. I didn’t mean to offend you. But you still look young what so don’t worry lah!

But seriously, you should eat some more. You’re damn skinny ordy liao. Tsk tsk.

Biggest fan ever since Summer said “Chino? Eew!”
Yaa. B)

Hi buddddyyyy! You’re like the best friend I’ve never spoken to -_- but so cool kay? You’re not actually my internet friend. Just a technology friend. A texting buddy.

Its weird how we didn’t really talk to each other in NS but we became really close friends after that! Awesome huh? Not really lorr cause you would tease me every single fucking day. Its a good thing that I’m not the “tarik muka” type right?

I’m meeting you and the others soon! Can’t wait. Or I’ll just make a really lame excuse and ditch the whole thing.

Sincerely,
The-person-you-call-lembeng.
(I have small ears I swear its just an inside joke!)

I’ve only had like what… Umm 4 boyfriends ever since I was 14? Haha so loyal right? -_-
its cool that most of my exes and I are still good friends. With exceptions though. Cause he was on team JACOB and I was on team EDWARD LIKE OMGFTWROFLBBQ much?
Doi I’m just kidding. :3

So to you guys, err you rock, scissors and paper! Sorry for being a bad girlfriend. (If you could call me that. The longest relationship I’ve ever been in was.. A month? Oh no wait 2 years. Damn short right? how come everyone can have like damn long term relationships?! gosh I sound so manglish but whatever lor)
And I’m pretty damn sure you guys are so happy now! Thanks to me! If I didn’t make up such lame excuses for a break-up you guys wouldn’t be happy now right? You people would be like “gawdd what is up with this chick? Everyday got period isit? So moody all the time! Aiyoh!” Everyday! :B

I guess that’s it! I hope I don’t get killed by a hit-man after this letter. Aiyoh. Its not even a hate-letter. I love you guyss!! Like tuition mates forever I swear!

X.
The 4 years older me! Yes do the math. :)

Ok this stranger suddenly popped inside my head out of nowhere.

Hi you! What’s your name ah? I never got your name. I just know you as the ADFP guy who looks like a better version of Taylor Lautner.

So yeah, you! Why is it that you always take the 4 o’clock bus to Cemara/Akasia? Aren’t you guys in Cendana? It puzzles me sometimes. Are you that lazy to wait for the bus? And its soooo weird how we’re always.. I mean always on the same bus. There are 3 buses and I’d always get into the one that you are in. Damn freaky man.

Haha maybe you just like the rafi place. Damn cheapskate la the place. Haha!

Xx
Ausmat-same-bus-wayfarer-person.
Peace!

You have constantly disturbing my current state of mind with random people appearing in it. Dude, lay off the dramas kay! Gosh, brain! you can be such an over-thinker sometimes it gets into my dreams!

And oh you should really tone down a bit on the sound effects because seriously at times I could feel like there’s a built in HD sound system in my dreams.

Andd duuuudeee like duddddeeee! Stop it with yucky people appearing in my dreams! It is beyond annoying! Well is it true that they say when a person appears in your dreams it means that they wanna meet you? What??! Don’t I get a say in this. Gawdd dreams, you should play me some good visions of the future everynight so that I’m inspired to study my ass off.

The conscious mind, sort-of.
Yaa :3

Dearrrrrrr siblings,
As much as you guys mock me and tease me and like do mean things towards me. Well not exactly mean… But yeah. Haha I know that deeeep deep down inside your hearts, you love this sort-of-like-adopted-because-i-dont-look-like-any-of-you sister :D

I wish you guys would kick some people’s asses for me. But nooo that’s not how you roll :( hahahaha.

I’m being so random.

Xxxxx nadiaaa

I believe I have a very healthy relationship with my parents. So far I haven’t felt the need to lie to them about where I’m going or with whom because they trust me :D which is cool because I know some people have to sneak behind their parents’ backs to go out or make up excuses and all. I am so grateful for that syukur alhamdulillah.

I mean even during my biggest exams they wouldn’t let me be all cooped up in my room because they don’t want me to be like a psycho anti-social type.

Even in relationships my mom is the best I swear! You cannot find any other mom who would join you on your date, but my mom did it.

She’s like friends with my friends. (Most of the closest ones)
And she gives the best tips ever. My mom would say “you better do it or else you’re gonna regret it” then I’ll be like “ookayyy?” Then after that I’m like “darn. Should’ve listened to you” haha!

Although sometimes I feel like plucking my hair out one by one whenever I hear them nag about how lazy I am, but I just thought of it this way the more they nag the more they love me. Sooo you nag it to the left you nag it to the right you do the nag day and night.

Lol.
What else. Oh yeah its my mom’s birthday today so yeah! :D

My dad is like the best shopping person ever. I mean if he’s in the mood to shop then get ready guys! Haha I’m serious. I think if he were a slogan, he would be “just take it and don’t think twice” :D

People’s first impressions towards my dad would be like “whoa he’s scary. Doesn’t he ever smile?” Hahaha! But seriously my dad can be realllyyyy funny. And like he’s the best. I mean he’s protective but not toooo protective. Which floats my boat. :D
There’s this one time my family and I watched new moon and he said I was like bella because I’m very indecisive. And he actually named two of the guyfriends “edward” and “jacob”! Damn funny! And he would call me up and say “where’s edward?” -___-

Just now my mom called and told me they went out to watch Eclipse and my dad asked her to ask me What happened to my Edward? Haha so random.

and the best part is that they never forced me to do anything I don’t want. And.. I guess that’s a good thing no? Like even if they rarely.. I mean never check my homeworks or anything but they actually know that I’m doing it. Its a psycho thing! :3

I love you mama and babah.
I hope I can make you proud.

Xx. Your youngest :]